Evil Spyda No 9: hello
vXxnazi haloxXv: hi
Evil Spyda No 9: my name is Bry. What's your name?
vXxnazi haloxXv: heh
vXxnazi haloxXv: dont be crazy
Evil Spyda No 9: what are you doing?
vXxnazi haloxXv: nothing
vXxnazi haloxXv: i was actually looking at a picture of us
Evil Spyda No 9: sounds exciting
vXxnazi haloxXv: yeah
vXxnazi haloxXv: what are you doing?
Evil Spyda No 9: talking to you
vXxnazi haloxXv: ahhh
vXxnazi haloxXv: sounds exciting
vXxnazi haloxXv: i didnt think you wanted to talk tp me
Evil Spyda No 9: why's that?
vXxnazi haloxXv: well.. thats just what ive heard
Evil Spyda No 9: you heard that, huh? from who?
vXxnazi haloxXv: ad plus Nick thinks im some sort of hypocrite.
vXxnazi haloxXv: so..
Evil Spyda No 9: yes, i know he does
Evil Spyda No 9: but who said i didn't want to talk to you? or are you just making that up?
vXxnazi haloxXv: it's not my place to say.. arent we a little old for stupud childish games?
vXxnazi haloxXv: stupid*
Evil Spyda No 9: "not your place to say" what?
vXxnazi haloxXv: you told Nick I fucked a whole bunch of people, and that im drunk all the time?
Evil Spyda No 9: know, i told him that you said that that's what you do now... because you did
Evil Spyda No 9: and i didn't say "a whole bunch of people"
vXxnazi haloxXv: I never drink...except that one nite I decided to talk to you.. BADDDDDD idea
vXxnazi haloxXv: i didnt fuck a bunch of people
Evil Spyda No 9: well, that one night you decided to talk to me (i don't know if you remember it or not), you said (when i asked you what you are up to these days) "I just hang out and get drunk with people that want me around, and want to fuck me"
Evil Spyda No 9: and then upon leaving, you said "sex time, bye"
vXxnazi haloxXv: yeah. and I alos told you that Jon was there saying shit to you, and he said that..
vXxnazi haloxXv: did i not ?
Evil Spyda No 9: no...
Evil Spyda No 9: you didn't
vXxnazi haloxXv: YEAh..
vXxnazi haloxXv: alright
vXxnazi haloxXv: i belive I told you multiple times.
Evil Spyda No 9: in the same conversation?
vXxnazi haloxXv: when I had called you, I had appologized for it the first time I talked to you
Evil Spyda No 9: or do you mean like, on the phone, a week later?
Evil Spyda No 9: right
vXxnazi haloxXv: yeah but I still said that
vXxnazi haloxXv: it*
Evil Spyda No 9: WTF, my computer is fucked up
vXxnazi haloxXv: im sorry?
Evil Spyda No 9: by that time i had already told nick what you said
Evil Spyda No 9: or what Jon said
vXxnazi haloxXv: you people take things way to seriously.
vXxnazi haloxXv: i dont know what to think of nick
Evil Spyda No 9: I'll brb, i have to restart my computer
Evil Spyda No 9 signed off at 3:03:55 AM.
Evil Spyda No 9 signed on at 3:07:25 AM.
vXxnazi haloxXv: (still talking about Nick....) he IMs me, and I expect a nice conversation since I hadn't heard from him in forever..and he gets all mad at me, calls me a hypocrite and pretty much a drunken slut. but whatever im not going to play stupid little games anymore, i'm not a child. if you guys want to be upset with me for one night of retarded drunkeness, thats fine with me, just don't fucking bitch at me for it because it's my life and I could be fucking it up a lot worse. and I know Nick is there, so you better let him read this too. He told me that I dont care about you guys anymore, amnd that isn
Evil Spyda No 9: he's sleeping
vXxnazi haloxXv: isn't true.. i just may have grown up a little bit, and grown out of stupid shit
Evil Spyda No 9: so he can't read this
vXxnazi haloxXv: okay
Evil Spyda No 9: and, yes, we can be mad at you for one night of stupid drunkenness... i was mad at Adam, Nick and RJ for their one night of drunkenness, you are no different
vXxnazi haloxXv: well I just dont think I should have to worry about peoples oppinions that are going to shit all over my thoughts and feelings. which is exactly what you and Nick have done, Rj doesnt care what I do with my life, MY LIFE, what does it matter to the rest of you
vXxnazi haloxXv: ?
Evil Spyda No 9: I don't care what you do with your life, either. Just realize that it has reprocussions on your friendships with people.
Evil Spyda No 9: I hardly talk to RJ since he started drinking. Thats just how i am.
vXxnazi haloxXv: be mad all you want. this is really immature. im 19 years old .. im living however the fuck I want to. and Im not a child. dont treat me like one.
Evil Spyda No 9: Laura, i just got done saying, I DONT CARE HOW YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE
Evil Spyda No 9: But i wouldn't hang out with anyone else that does that shit, either...
vXxnazi haloxXv: your trying to control my lif, in order to keep your friendship..
Evil Spyda No 9: no, if you don't want me as a friend, that's fine
vXxnazi haloxXv: I drank ONCE. not that it really matters if it was a million times.. you were my friend before.. when I smoked pot and drank.. and fuck knows what else I was doing back then..
vXxnazi haloxXv: yeah.. because you know i dont want you as a friend?........right..
Evil Spyda No 9: you may have only drank once, but you go to parties all the time, and hang out with a bunch of people that do drink and do that shit, and i don't generally like people who do that
vXxnazi haloxXv: right... so Im a horrible person and you cant be my friend.
Evil Spyda No 9: almost EVERY time i tried to hang out with you this summer, you were at some friends house where they were getting drunk and being stupid
vXxnazi haloxXv: you better take a closer look at some of your other friends than..
Evil Spyda No 9: like who?
Evil Spyda No 9: I only have 2 of them...
Evil Spyda No 9: LIke i said, i hardly talk to rJ anymore
Evil Spyda No 9: RJ*
vXxnazi haloxXv: not that I WANTED to be there... they are my friends too... im not going to disown them just because they drink.
Evil Spyda No 9: well good, I'm glad you are okay with being around people who do drink and other stupid shit. But I'm not.
vXxnazi haloxXv: and that gives you a reason to hate me..
vXxnazi haloxXv: okay
Evil Spyda No 9: ... yes.
vXxnazi haloxXv: it sure makes a lot of sence.
vXxnazi haloxXv: well, thanks for making people think that im some gigantic slut bag, and some kind of lush. i really dont know what to say to you.. you're obviously pissed off and acting like a child
Evil Spyda No 9: How am i acting like a child?
vXxnazi haloxXv: you cant be my friend, because I have ohter friends that like to drink... well you know.. at least these people treat me like a human being and not like a peice of fucking trash, that noone gives a fuck about
Evil Spyda No 9: You know, my huge lack of friends isn't because i don't meet new people... it's because the people i DO meet, i don't want to hang out with, because of the things they do which i don't like
Evil Spyda No 9: I'm not treating you like a piece of trash, I'm treating you like someone who likes to go to parties and hang out with a bunch of drunks
Evil Spyda No 9: And those are the kind of people i don't like.
vXxnazi haloxXv: you obviously dont like me anymore because of what ive done. sorry im such a horrible sinner. sorry you cant love me for who i am. im sorry Ive kept you my friend for so long, im sorry I cared about you at all. you obviosuly dont care about me. you deff. dont care about my feelings, i understand. oh trust me it's perfectly clear.. thanks for everything, and nothing all at once.
Evil Spyda No 9: You're welcome.
Evil Spyda No 9: Thanks for apologizing.
vXxnazi haloxXv: yeah, no problem at all..goodnight bry. i apologize for fucking living. hopefully i'll die someday, maybe then you'd care, maybe just a little bit, maybe you'd realize that you hated me for all the wrong reasons. possibly even shed a tear. no.. i doubt it, because right now it seems like you dont even have a heart. i love you, bry. I always fuckin loved you . goodbye.
Evil Spyda No 9: Alright, take care now. Bye bye
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it's so sad how much I care, and I wish I didn't at all. you are my best friend, how can I deal with losing one of the only people I give two fucking shits about. I miss you terribly, and not at all, im torn and broken, and your tearing me down. you're everything and nothing to me. you're breaking me apart. I just want want to be happy, I just want to make you happy. please tell me you're happier now.